That Website Bloke

STORM

Just a man

I came home last night drunk and tired,
all i could think of was you inside my heart
I know you’re slipping away.
I get it wrong sometimes when i observe you,
Don’t you just want me the way i just want
You, and i know you’re pushing away
I’m not sure than i understand but as sure as i’m a man I will fail

I try to call you but you’re not taking any message from a heart that’s slowly breaking
And i know i messed it up good I wanted to tell you how i adore you.
Don’t you just want me the way i just want you?
Remember all of the things that you said that you loved.
I’m not sure that i understand but as sure as i’m a man I will fail
I’m not sure that i understand but as sure as i’m a man I will

Fall for you and try to work it through and clumsily dive into
Your smile that will bring me to realise why i can’t let go.
And now the night sky fills my vision,
I’m reaching out but i know i’ve got the wrong rhythm
Now nothing really matters without you
I make my wishes as the stars are falling, i try to save them but my pockets are overflowing
Isn’t it time i could trade them all in?

I’m not sure that i understand but as sure as i’m a man i will fail
I’m not sure that i understand but as sure as i’m a man i will fail
I’m not sure that i understand but as sure as i’m a man ...

Given time i could be a man that you want me to be
But if you need some time alone you know that i’m by the phone
And i’m waiting for the word that says you’re over the hurt
But for now we can agree that there’s something in between
I’m not sure that i understand I’m not sure that i understand


© Ben Ford-Davies 1994

RIGHT TIME

THE RIGHT TIME

Will it ever be the right time for love? 
Will you stay by my side my love?
I don’t want sad tears to flow
I have these dark fears you know.
Trust in love, it’ll bring you back some day

Caused me confusion, countless, carry on be strong
Why the sun, the moon, the stars, a lovers’ song
But kissing you is so right, so right and soft And i watch you sigh as i cry and we say that it won’t be long

And i hear my yesterdays but i want it anyway
And I am selfish in sayin’ nobody’s gonna get in my way
I’m settled on desire for there’s no-one i’d rather spend
My time with sharing secrets and laughter
And they say love , oh love It’ll bring you back someday.

Will it ever be the right time? Will it ever be the right time?
Will you stay by my side my love?
My love. My love.
My love.
 
© Ben Ford-Davies 1994

STILL A BOY

STILL A BOY

I had a friend and he had me,
thick as thieves we’d ever be
Ridin’ around in a clapped out van,
a doobie in your pocket and a song in hand
Everything we tried it was all brand new,
everything they told us not to do
If i was in trouble then so were you,
just another tale to tell

Somewhere between bein’ boys and men,
certainty became questioning
It didn’t feel right but it couldn’t be wrong
when a girl came along
But she got you and she got you good,
took out the ground from where you stood
Picked you up put you in your place,
her car kicking up dust in my face
...and you get smaller in the distance

Time it beats upon my skin, shows me where i’ve been,
shows me where i’m going
but i am clear in my mind, I am still a boy time has left behind

Well the rug came out and i fell through
the rosy glass and the dream not true
If i got tall and you got old then growing up has left me cold
I’m happy you found salvation,
I never knew you needed some
I would’ve seen it on the wall
if you hadn’t written it so small
...but there will always be a memory

Now we’re older and wiser still,
you won’t say and i can’t tell
How friends can leave off after all this time
After everything that’s happened now
you want me to deny
The heart of where i came from

...and i won’t and i can’t and i won’t

It keeps me going on.


© Ben Ford-Davies 2015

STORM

Storm (Cane Song)

Pieces of my soul are blowing like sand I shatter like glass when you brush my hand 
When can i feel you again?
Shards of my heart bleeding like a cut vein bring a fall apart when you say my name
When can i see you again?
And the moon is slowly rising like fire on the cane
And it flames my desire for your sweet face

Dervish in a whirl churning like an ocean spinning like a top set free in motion
Pheromone smile stir me like a hot breeze your style bring me to my knees
Let me kneel for you
And the moon is slowly rising like fire on the cane
And it flames my desire for your sweet face

She is where i want to be but she is wary of me with good reason
There are barbs around my heart and i donʼt know where to start my healing
When all iʼve ever known is how to leave and brave my disconnection
From my obsession with perfection

And the moon is slowly rising like fire on the cane
And it flames my desire for your sweet face
And your taste, in your grace i can find just a little Peace of mind,
A piece of me that keeps me trying to counter All this wasted time


© Ben Ford-Davies 2015

VITRUVIAN MAN

Vitruvian Man

Well I sometimes live in a shadow,
And in an old dream, A child is clutching a candle.
And the hope in it all, fear of it all, way of it all, Perpetually revolving.
But I find I am unavoidably still evolving.
There’s a malevolent fire breathing under the floor
Licking at my skin and burning my core.
It didn’t knock , didn’t ask to come in
Just smothered the room with it’s deadly sin.
There’s my world out of place
I feel my bond to the human race.
With an open mind, a solid plan,
I know that I can
Become Vitruvian man... 

Well I can’t say I won’t have inclination to stumble
But the hope in it all is that the fear,
the tower of fear will crumble
There’s a benevolent light creeping under the door
And in the blink of an eye it’s covered the floor
It didn’t knock, didn’t ask to come in
Just flooded the room, burnt away my sin
Lit my fear, my disgrace I can see it all
clear as the earth from space
Now with an open mind,
an open stance and widespread hands
Become Vitruvian man....

© 2016 (Ford-Davies/Taheny/Grummet) 

WATER SONG

The Water Song

Run to tell the one you love the peace you find,
In her eyes, it satisfies,
And all there’s left to say is that I need you,
like water.

Wash my hands for I have dirt beneath my nails,
and it only serves reminder for the times I failed my love, But now it’s just the purest, like water,
like water.

When you have turned your back on me the tide will turn and you will see that love is boundless.

And if I thought that my mistakes had caused her pain, and from her eyes came the rain again,
all I‘d have to say is that i need you like water,
like water.

Now if the time comes to say that the peace find
is in another place and time,
then I will gently fade away like water like water...
like water...
like water...

© Ben Ford-Davies 1994

YOU ARE THE ONE

You are the One

You are the one who made me laugh.
You are the one.
You are the one who tried to catch lightning.
You are the one.
You are the one who cried at the graveside,
didn’t want to dance at the wake
You are the one who said hold my hand,
I’ve always been afraid of the dark.

You are the one who never grows old.
You are the one.
You are the one who sings in the morning.
You are the one.
You are the one who looks in the mirror
and counts all the lines on your face
You are the one who keeps finding fault
and runs out of time for your dreams.
Try as i might I can’t understand
the difference between me and you
Maybe i’m wrong in believing my heart
but it don’t seem to matter to you
Because I am the one who can’t settle down,
who can’t make up my mind
And i am the one who never grows old
but like you will run out of time


© Chris Davies 1979